2024 : Unleashing My Roar: A Year of Fearless Risks

A Sample Year

In a world that often expects women to conform, I've proudly embraced my identity as a vocal and assertive individual. Despite my outward confidence, I've grappled with the face of failure, a struggle that has left its mark on my journey. As I embark on the year 2024—a year I've declared as my "Year of Fearless Risks, Resilience, and Self-Discovery," I share the evolution of my resilience, the burden of relentless pursuit, and the decision to redefine success beyond a singular goal.

The Burden of Resilience:
Resilience, a quality I've cultivated in the face of setbacks, has been both a shield and a burden. There are times when I don't require its constant presence, yet it persists in the background, a silent force urging me forward. I've come to realize that acknowledging resilience is not a refusal to sing but an acknowledgment that strength is always within reach, even if not always invoked.

Relentless Pursuit of a Singular Goal:
For the past three years, I've been consumed by a singular goal, a pursuit that demanded unwavering focus and commitment. It became a part of my identity, a measure of success, and the absence of its realization left me labeling myself as a failure. However, upon reflection, I've come to understand that such self-criticism couldn't be further from the truth.

This year, I've chosen to step back from the constant charge toward that solitary goal. I've realized the need to break free from the shackles of defining my worth solely based on a singular ambition. I am more than that one thing, and the acknowledgment of this truth is liberating. It is an invitation to explore the vast expanse of my capabilities and potential.

Taking a Break:
This year is about taking a break—a pause in the relentless pursuit that has defined the past few years. It's an intentional decision to divert my focus from the singular goal that has monopolized my energy. Instead, I am choosing gratitude, acknowledging the blessings and achievements that surround me. I'm recognizing that, five years ago, I aspired for the very things I now possess.

Rather than berating myself for not attaining that one elusive goal, I've decided to be grateful. Grateful for the journey, the lessons, and the opportunities that have come my way. I am better off than many, and this realization becomes the counterpoint to the perceived failure. Gratitude, I've come to understand, is a powerful force that shifts the narrative from lack to abundance.

Expanding the Rebel's Horizon:
The rebel within me is not extinguished; it's merely shifting its focus. While I won't be slowing down, my rebellion will now be directed towards social issues that transcend personal goals. I've recognized the importance of being a voice for causes that extend beyond individual ambitions—issues that impact a broader spectrum of people, resonating with emotions that go beyond my own.

Let it be known—I'm not conceding defeat. I will return to the relentless pursuit of my goals, aiming to secure a seat at the table. The rebel within me will continue to fight, dragging the chair until it gains its rightful place. However, for this year, a temporary retreat is in order. I am redirecting my energy, focusing on sectors and emotions that demand attention. The hunger for impact, meaningful connections, and self-discovery becomes the driving force in this temporary reprieve, paving the way for a more holistic and fulfilling journey.

Exploring the Layers of Resilience:
To grasp the intricate layers of my resilience, it's crucial to delve into the nuanced facets that compose this dynamic quality. Resilience is not a one-size-fits-all concept; instead, it manifests as a multifaceted strength adapting to the challenges presented. It is the silent force that propels me forward, even when the path seems uncertain. Forged through both triumphs and tribulations, this resilience reflects an unwavering determination to navigate life's complexities.

The face of failure is a familiar one, and I've encountered it multiple times throughout my journey. It's a visage that once evoked fear and self-doubt but has now become a teacher—an instructor in the classroom of life. Failure has taught me invaluable lessons about perseverance, adaptability, and the inevitability of setbacks on the road to success.

As I reflect on my evolution, I trace its roots back to moments of adversity that seemed insurmountable. Each setback became a stepping stone, not only towards success but also towards a deeper understanding of my capabilities. Resilience is not confined to merely bouncing back from failure; it represents the art of learning, growing, and emerging stronger from the crucible of challenges. An aggressive refusal to sink.

In this intricate dance between fear and resilience, I've discovered a delicate balance that fuels personal growth. While fear may occasionally whisper tales of inadequacy and potential failure, resilience serves as a steadfast companion—a defiant response that refuses to succumb to the shadows of self-doubt. It's within this dynamic interplay that true transformation occurs, marking a journey shaped not only by achievements but also by the profound lessons learned in moments of vulnerability.

This pivotal juncture in my narrative signifies a conscious decision to craft a story that transcends the boundaries of conventional success. The intersection of fear and resilience becomes a canvas on which I paint a narrative rich in self-discovery, gratitude, and a newfound appreciation for the diverse aspects of my identity. It is an invitation to explore the vast spectrum of my capabilities, unburdened by the constraints of a singular goal, and fueled by the expansive spirit of curiosity.

In this Year of Fearless Risks, Resilience, and Self-Discovery, I am not merely navigating the highs and lows of success and failure; I am sculpting a narrative that embraces the richness of life's experiences. The evolution of resilience, the face of failure, and the delicate dance between fear and resilience converge to create a story that transcends limitations. This narrative is defined by the exploration of diverse avenues, each contributing to a more profound understanding of self. As I embrace this holistic perspective, I embark on a journey that resonates with authenticity, purpose, and an assured confidence that roars.

Just because I lost a lion fight, does not mean I don't know how to roar.